Vent away...

I am so freaking tired of inconsiderate ass holes. I wish someone could for once tell me straight forward what they think. Is it really that hard to express your feelings or to really be honest with someone? After all I've been through I  realize that it is better to be brutaly honest than to sugar coat it and beat around the bush. In both cases it still hurts but when you sugar coat it it makes the other person feel stupid for believing something that is totally the oposite. I can't wait to start living the careless free lufe I've so longed for! I am really close but for some reason it still feels like an eternity. I wanted this 5 day get away with P but he had to turn in to an ass and messed it all up. Honestly idk what changed!!! I wish I could read his mind so I could at least know the why... It was alll going so well... I met his friends he met mine we hung out a lot just as friends and then all of a sudden it changed. Idk if it was because he just couldn't take hiding anymore? everywhere we went I looked over my shoulder to make sure there wasn't anyone I knew and the time that I did know someone at the restaurant I think I was so nervous it made him uncomfortable, but still I loved my time with him when he was nice, he made me feel good and made the stress dessapear. I do miss that a lot. Life goes on and I can't spend my time dwelling on what could've been. I have to stay focused on my future and learn as hard as it may be that there is a sea of people out there waiting to be blown away like I am. I just want to dance my feelings and my stress away. Dancing is my greatest passion. I enjoy it like nothing else. :) music brings happiness to my soul and brightens my days. :)